want someone who I can text/talk to all the time!!!!!!!!!! 

all I have to say is DAMN this was a great weekend! It was just so chill and filled with great friends!!! 

Here’s to 20 years of living!!! and I’m gonna live it up 10 times harder =)

My creative writing class is set up like a discussion. I don’t have to take notes, there’s no lecture all we do is read stories and then come to class and talk about them. We don’t even raise our hands we just talk. It’s just like talking to a bunch of friends except we talk about homework which isn’t really a fun subject among friends. Anyways today in class we were talking about one of the stories in which the main girl and guy have this complicated relationship where they are each playing “the game” but neither is playing to win. One person said, “How come relationships have to be so difficult? How come it can’t be: I like you and you like me, so let’s go out.” And at that moment, with out really meaning too, I look at the guy who I think is cute and was surprised to see him looking back (or maybe he didn’t maybe my mind was playing tricks on me … I probably just wished he was looking at me … such a girl move thinking that eye contact means something more LOL typical!) 

Anyways… cute moment aside… seriously though, how come it can’t be that simple?

Every time I see someone attractive I don’t do anything. Most of the time I act as if I didn’t see them, giggle about how cute that guy is with whomever I’m with and that’s that. 

I’m always thinking “How come guys aren’t more forward? Why don’t they make the first move? They should be making cute romantic gestures!” But if I’m not willing to put myself out there how can I expect someone else to be?

“[insert English boy’s name here], I think you’re cute. Want to grab lunch sometime?” is what I want to say. But it’s really hard to ask that when I’m thinking: shit, if he says “no” I’m going to have to endure class with him for the rest of the quarter. That’s going to be awkward.

I mean I’ve said bolder/weirder/blunter things to guys, but it was to guys whom I’m already friends with. AHHH it’s time to be bold. 

All I want to do right now is just sit around and watch movies. I want to watch an action movie, a romantic movie, a disney movie, a comedy. I just want to watch movies!!!! But I can’t, being lazy just gets me behind in work. 

Okay so after the loooongest finals week ever came the quickest break. It’s always like that: school takes forever and vacation passes by quickly. But this was a great break. I got to sleep, eat, relax and just breathe without worrying about wasting time. I got to see old friends and make new friends; I finally got to have human contact after being locked in my apartment studying all week! andddddd BREAK! lol … not really since I go back on Monday but teehee. lol